freckle time, freckle time freck-freck-freckle time, freeeeckle tiiiiime!

I am one zonked mama.. i didnt get a chance to excersize today, eat breakfast or have coffee. I did drink lots of h2o and Shawn made fish tonight for dinner.. and he brought me home two lemons, how i love lemons.. the smell.. the color.. he loves me!
Here are some dandy little diddys from this sunday. The Gendron Five had a blast playing outside in the sun, getting muddy and exploring, just running with not as much boundaries! I got some freckles too, anything to take away from my huge nose, thank you dad for giving me your nose and ears..
enjoy, be blessed & be delightful!




Dear God, help me appreciate every season of mothering with new eyes that see life from the fresh perspective of my child. AMEN.

Yes I totally know Aidan needs a hair cut... i will.. soon.. but I do love his crazy hair.. think Gene Wilder!
;oD




goodbye snow peeples.. thanks for making us smile in the winter months as we peered out the windows to wave at you! See you next year!




And my little "rebel w/o a cause" has finally started eating w/utencils! I know I know, waaay to long overdue! but everything has to be on "his time"- I have up on Thanksgiving. Saturday night I came out from the backroom and there he was, he at with his fork the whole time! rock on little buddy! I praised him soo much, he was diggin' it. Then sunday morning.. Aiva never finishes her milk.. so he crossed the table, grabbed a large spoon and had at it! "slurrp sluurp!" what a relief!
He's talking soo much you guys! its awesome, and today i did some math, and I estimate he says mom about 470 times a day! no joke! yikes!

Maivey is hard to photograph, she's always bouncing! Notice Aiv's? future shutterbug?






Aiva adores dance! and the girls she dances with are soo sweet and gentle! it's a blast!

artsy fartsy is my hearts delight!

OK i cant wait to blog about my day, and some pics from it are uploading right now.. have to get the kids to bed right now but will return soon to share!
I love this song, it really communicates simply and to the point, what ive been feeling the past three days.
and yes im an artsy fartsy kinda gal.

3 am epiphany///what dieing your hair does///or mid 20's crisis?

So I am a bit confused right now, my hearts a little down.
I had Shawn cancel the "backorder" of the Canon 5DMII. I totally wish it would have come 6 weeks ago. See tuesday night I died my hair.. no I don't know what i was thinking! ( mid 20's mother of three crisis? )BUT THE CHEMICALS TOTALLY SEEPED INTO MY BRAIN.. Next day I was mad at myself to think I could be so happy at a silly decision as to buy a nearly $3,000 camera, when we have 3 little mouths to feed, bills to pay. And what if I don't make it?
Last year I started feeling out the possibility of being a pro photog. I loved it. and doors & windows were opening like crazy.
But you know what.. and this is the hard part..
i now have a 12 month old baby girl, that honestly ( tears ) i didnt invest alot of memory making with. She is a super content baby and has 3 + 4 year old brother and sisters that really keep her entertained, and i took advantage of that ALOT.. way to much.
and the worse mother of the year award goes to Julie G.

for what? to get a few minutes, okay.. hours in front of this lousy computer. Learning Corel Paint Shop Pro Photo, then Lightroom, even shutterfly.com to build my templates. for what?
i regret it, its a horrible feeling, and yes when i read peoples blogs or facebook status updates about their new 5DMII.. i get a twinge of jealousy, but you know what, maybe someday I'll get something spiffy like that. How imature of myself to allow my husband to show his love and belief in me to buy me such an expensive piece of technology.. I am going to earn my way, like i have all this life, im not going to cut corners or let the cart get before this horse. I mean come on. im just learning to use my XTI in Manual mode.. wow.. Yep, ive been using it in "P" mode for 1.5 years yay for me! Ok I'm done ranting, tomorrow shawn has off, we have a 1 yr old who has lot of teeth pain, and alot of memories to make, and fresh snow! Tomorrow is going to be the most beautiful day ever.. { say this every night before you fall asleep and you'll here your pillow make snap crackle poppy noises when your cheek slowly forms a peaceful hopeful smile!
living this life to love,
Julie G
PS- Dear Shawn, Please forgive me for allowing you to belive that you needed to buy me an expensive peace of technology to show your love. You dont, You believe in me and I know it, You are a great mailman, and wonderful father, and an outstanding husband. I so cherish your waking up in the middle of the night with your arms wrapped around me. You, God, and our three mugwumps are all this little woman needs!

I'm a thankful mama..

oh wow..
grab a tissue...
or ten..
ok the WHOLE box!

ardent

I AM … a thankful, busy, determined woman!

I WANT… to learn a lot in a little amount of time.

I HAVE … a happy home filled with a lot of love.

I KEEP … advertisements from magazines for inspiration. Kind words, notes and emails.

I WISH I COULD … sleep for 12 hours straight.

I HATE … ignoranceI FEAR … time

I HEAR … the rain outside

I DON’T THINK … the floors are going to get mopped today..nope definatley NOT!

I REGRET … not being bubbly and outgoing at the FTSNY stop…

I LOVE … kisses on my forehead, and rocking with my Maive, cheek to cheek in the chair.

I AM NOT … going to live with regret.

I DANCE … horribley bad, but its fun, and I love to! Specially with my little ones!

I SING … only when the music is loud enough to where I cannot hear myself
I NEVER … finish everything on my plate.

I RARELY … start an argument

I CRY WHEN I WATCH … home movies, visa, Kodak, or hallmark commercials

I AM NOT ALWAYS … in control of my emotions

I HATE THAT … people judge a book by it’s cover

I’M CONFUSED ABOUT … business related stuff..I NEED … soup, crackers and a big blanket.

I SHOULD … pray more.

Free to Succeed Tour!

it doesnt show but there was internal spontaneous combustion of excitinment within me
Shawn asking for some hubby/shooting tips?
where are the monkeys?

Well... our 5th anni was the 23rd. and we spent it together the 25th on our way to the Free To Succeed Tour put on by David Jay ft Jasmine Star.
I am so thankful we were able to go and it was the first time we had been away together really since our honeymoon.
It was the strangest thing though to not have three kids in the back of the car competing for your attention!
Its such a gloomy day, I'm feeling overtired and I feel bad I am blogging right now but everyone is alseep at the
moment and this is my opportune time!
Jasmine Star was so refreshing. I immediately fell head over heels in love with her, she made me laugh so much,
she was genuine and hilarious and really got my passion revved. ANd if you are wondering, yes i chickened out
and I was my usual reserved shy self. But also I've been extremely sleep deprived, and some other stressor
have come about in our lives that have been kind of zapping our energies and I know that neither Shawn or I were
completely ourselves!
But yes Jasmine is just so lovable. AND SHE HUGGED ME! You know im not a hugger, but i loved her hug! It was special!
I even did that goofy squeely thing as when we got there an hour early we checked out where the place was
before we had to get some grub in our bellies.. the elevator door opened and shawn stepped out, and stepping in was JD ( J*'s hubby!)
Yeah, i was suprised and squealed the
( I know you-kind of-sort of-from your wifes blog-back to jr high backstreet boy squeal.. yeah I soo did.)
And I'm 25 and a mother of three!
It was a blast though, I felt a little more like me for a while. When you have kids, life is just so
go go go fast fast fast, everyone competeing life just is on fast forward and i rarely get alot of time
to just think really. It was so nice to have complete uninterrupted, non fragmented thoughts.. and breathing,
i got to breath, i wasnt a nurse, referee, chef for one night! ROCK ON!
Jasmine talked alot about how to brand yourself. ANd in all she had to say I realized I know nothing of me.
weird I know, but i dont, a whirwhind of a hurtful childhood, I was always a camelion, wanting to be whatever I could see someone
wanted me to be, so they would be happy with me, and i wouldnt recieve their rejection,
I've never really had a chance to be me. And I really dont know who I am.
The good news is this.
Shawn and I just rededicated our lives to Christ. I am going to learn who i am and need to be in identifying myself in Christ.
Keep It Real is what J* said. I have alot of obstacles to overcome: I am passive. Not a take charge girl.
But i will earn to be, she said to figure out who you are as a person and then infuse that into your photography so
in the next few weeks, that is my goal, im reading a ton when i can, praying, and just finding out what i like,
why it is i like it, embracing that and then bringing that into my new career.. PHOTOGRAPHER!
Also, on the way home we popped on a Pennslyvania christian radio station and I heard Natalie Grant's In Better Hands,
I've heard it a few times before, but i actually was like forced to listen to the words, and with thinking of all i had learned at the
seminar and the words how it all tied in, it was like a message from the big guy, its cool how there is so
double meanings in it all, and you can learn so much.
I went to learn alot of how i want to run my business coming in 2009, but also it so applied to my christian walk.
and i bawled.. i was crying so hard. I had fought it for so long, choking tears back for months no,
all the pain and confusion that have been brought about this year, it all came about and i finally broke, one can only be so strong for so long.
Shawn pulled off the highway and we got out and he just held me for so long, no words,
just his arms and it was so overdue, so needed.. and I am thankful..
and im thankful for Shawn.. my nascar driver,
dropping an $85.00 dinner.. yeah like whoa! thats a months worth of formula for maive,
or 2 months of diapers.. ah well, it was so worth it! I wish I could meet DJ, Becker, J*, Kenny Kim again.. they seem so fun, nice, genuine, everything that we're lacking here in the Binghamton NY!
ah well!
Maybe we should be the change? Thanks for reading! any encouragement from what you've read, or confirmation would be greatly appreciated. I love feedback..
i am going to work on my site: http://www.juliegendron.com/.. because really, its kind of lame!
'o)

Okaaaaaaaayyyy.. sooo my coooompuuuuuuuuuter was soooo slow today, but for once, i was sooo very thankful for the raaaainn, and oh there was alot of it! I got so much done! But when the sun returns, you can bet your bottoms that the Gendron crew will be out rollin' in the grass racing and just embracing the wonderful stage of toddlerhood-mommyhood..

Here a a few shots from Kevin & Deanna Brown's wedding July 11, 2008..

Congrats you guys! I love you and am sooo very happy to have you in our lives! ANNND I CANT WAIT TILL YOU HAVE WITTLE "D'S" AND WITTLE "BROWNS" TO BLESS THIS WORLD!
BE BLESSED!
*J

Mission statement!

Well, I dont have one yet ..
but last night i read a quote that really hit the nail on the head for me:

* A true measure of your worth includes all the benefits others have gained from your success *

and then this mornign I got an awesome email from my brother in law Matt in Tampa, FL and near the end of the email he said : "Lastly just remember that your success can be measured as much by the joy you bring to others through your talent and hard work as it can by your business and financial success."

I love it, God is too good to me yes so yeah.. getting back to work on what I am about, why and all that.. just had to share, i've been grinning from ear to ear all day!