1.01.2011

how i feel at my attempt at being a photographer.

..yeah i am not cut out for it, i am not talented at multitasking. in any way, which is why i burn things constantly in the kitchen.. me and woman hood don't play nice, soo... i flopped trying to start a business, and manage the money thing... ah. well.. i guess, i gave it my best shot, and at least i tried, i cant say i didn't, so what if i failed miserably.. at least i found out and wont go through life wondering what could have been..

I do feel heart broken over the whole thing..
i wanted to be a photographer since the ninth grade.
I am hoping that there will be more to this year than disciplining, dishes, and diapers..
but at least i wont have the stress of deadlines, divas and downloads! :)
it'll take a while to let it go.. let the dream die.. but i know sooner or later
i will be happier for it, my family will to, it wasn't really supplementing our income in
any way at all, so that's not a loss either..

deep breath.. :)

Maybe the good Lord will give me some new dream.. new contentment.
I am finally finally fine with letting the dream die.
A big thank you to all those who supported me, and trusted me. :)

























7 comments:

Megan {ShabbyBlogs} said...

I hate to break it to you, but you have always been a photographer and always will be. It's a gift God gave you- whether you carry the business card or not. You remember that, friend. :)

Julie said...

Megan you are always so very sweet to me and put a big wide smile on my face!

Nicole Carter said...

Julie, you are one of the most talented photographer's I have seen. Your pictures make me feel like I am looking at a fairytale. I don't understand why you are giving this up...but it's your decision. Please keep your pictures up on your blog as I look at it for inspiration. I agree with Megan you have a true gift! If I can be half as good as you one day I will be happy woman. Please re-consider...

Nicole (Nicole Carter Photography)

Anonymous said...

You are a very talented photographer. We often have to make hard choices between family,kids,careers etc. I understand that, but don't give up on your dream even if you have to postpone it for a while. God has given you the ability to "see" things others don't and bring pleasure to others who view your work.He will find a place for you to use the gifts he has given you.

Caity said...

I love this quote because Joel had to give up his business last year too. It was hard feeling like a failure but if you learned from it, how can it be failure. Plus my sister is right, you are still a photographer! You take beautiful pictures! I love them! Here's a quote I love that makes me feel better when I feel like I failed at something, "Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm."
-Winston S. Churchil

vickdn said...

I just wanted you to know that I think your pictures are beautiful! You captured some great moments there. Like everyone else, I hope you don't give up on your dream. At least keep at it for a hobby, cuz you are very talented!

Anonymous said...

You are extremely talanted and your pictures are georgeous!!! Please continue to take pictures and your dream will come true....